Saturday, July 4, 2020

It's done!

Drip drop drip drop! It's raining cats and dogs. Suddenly dark clouds covered the clear sky. She froze as she looked out the window while witnessing the sudden change of weather then she went back to the living room and continue in watching her favorite sitcom. The scenes were funny and hilarious but she felt her heart hurt. She fought the urge to cry but the hole inside her widen and went deeper. She can't fight it, no! her tears welled down. It's been months now since that feeling visited her again. She would ignore and set it aside but it keeps coming back. The feeling of being unwanted, alone, of being unworthy of anything, of being unloved, no value and her existence isn't important to anyone and has no bearing to the world. She would fight that feeling every day as she wakes up without motivation to move nor to do anything. But then half of her insists that she should continue on living. She obliged herself to function and move on but that feeling never stop. It continues... loneliness and the emptiness won't subside. Now as she cries, she realized it's already done for her. She's done and everything is over with her. She saw the pain reliever on the side table and took it seeing that it has passed the expiration date. She went to the kitchen to get some water and as the sound of the rain can no longer be heard, a glass dropped on the floor. The rain has stopped, it's done...

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